Whew, it's nice to read other ppl's blogs. Although I'm here in Cali and don't see a lot of old buds, I can still know what they're up to. :P
Had a long talk w/ dad last nite. I'm still lost in the mist of my uncertain life journey. It is rather scary to look ahead and no able to see where I'll be ending up. I look back to my life. I have found lots of precious time wasted. Still so much needed to be done. I wonder when I'll be able to have a paycheck that is bigger than my parents'. Competition has grown tremendously over the decades and hopefully I'll still exist under the natural selection. whew.
Here is a philosophical question. Why are we in this world? Fed n educated for 20 years so we would be able to feed a family of our own and perhaps pass on some of our memories to them?
People are working hard mindlessly to earn that paychecks for their kids, their family, their house, cars, or if they're lucky, their next vacation. Is this what life is all about? I'm lost. Clueless. Enjoying life by means of material pleasure, which stray so far away what I had planned for.
I guess what I am doing now is enjoying whatever is available around me, for that maybe people, or certain things. I don't know. Fate has changed the world that I had in mind, I have lost all the confidence that I have any control of anything.
One voice in my head would be "finish school, find a job" while the other me will be hiding under the cover of flashy graphix and sound of the games and media world.
20 years have passed by and I'm still afraid to leave the green house...
Had a long talk w/ dad last nite. I'm still lost in the mist of my uncertain life journey. It is rather scary to look ahead and no able to see where I'll be ending up. I look back to my life. I have found lots of precious time wasted. Still so much needed to be done. I wonder when I'll be able to have a paycheck that is bigger than my parents'. Competition has grown tremendously over the decades and hopefully I'll still exist under the natural selection. whew.
Here is a philosophical question. Why are we in this world? Fed n educated for 20 years so we would be able to feed a family of our own and perhaps pass on some of our memories to them?
People are working hard mindlessly to earn that paychecks for their kids, their family, their house, cars, or if they're lucky, their next vacation. Is this what life is all about? I'm lost. Clueless. Enjoying life by means of material pleasure, which stray so far away what I had planned for.
I guess what I am doing now is enjoying whatever is available around me, for that maybe people, or certain things. I don't know. Fate has changed the world that I had in mind, I have lost all the confidence that I have any control of anything.
One voice in my head would be "finish school, find a job" while the other me will be hiding under the cover of flashy graphix and sound of the games and media world.
20 years have passed by and I'm still afraid to leave the green house...
