Damn it.
Today is Chinese New Year's Day, and I'm fucking annoyed for some reason.
Supposedly a family gathering day, which I have long felt the meaning of "family" has been non-existent. So far, I have a very good job with a boss who gives me ample of resources to grow. I'm greatful for it. And this is pretty much the only thing that's going for me. The rest is non-existent. or rather, annoying to say the least. I'm pretty much back to solitude life again, with my parents' words just become something more of a burden or annoyance.
Maybe b/c it's valentine's day, or maybe it's b/c I am 29 and still single. Or maybe it's my parents' always saying the wrong things in front of others, in front of me. I have a paranoid father who would just randomly become psychotic w/o warning, and a step-mom who refuses to recognize that she has become so fat and unhealthy, and the words coming out of her mouth are no different from a 3 year old, literally, and the worst thing is that she is overly proud of herself.
I'm sure things would get better as time goes on (I mean it can't get any worse unless I lost my job again), but at the moment I just need to rant. and probably say a few "f" word to let the anger out of my mind.
Although I live under the same roof with my parents, I have no felt the warmth of being at home for many many years, ever since my mother was gone.
Today is Chinese New Year's Day, and I'm fucking annoyed for some reason.
Supposedly a family gathering day, which I have long felt the meaning of "family" has been non-existent. So far, I have a very good job with a boss who gives me ample of resources to grow. I'm greatful for it. And this is pretty much the only thing that's going for me. The rest is non-existent. or rather, annoying to say the least. I'm pretty much back to solitude life again, with my parents' words just become something more of a burden or annoyance.
Maybe b/c it's valentine's day, or maybe it's b/c I am 29 and still single. Or maybe it's my parents' always saying the wrong things in front of others, in front of me. I have a paranoid father who would just randomly become psychotic w/o warning, and a step-mom who refuses to recognize that she has become so fat and unhealthy, and the words coming out of her mouth are no different from a 3 year old, literally, and the worst thing is that she is overly proud of herself.
I'm sure things would get better as time goes on (I mean it can't get any worse unless I lost my job again), but at the moment I just need to rant. and probably say a few "f" word to let the anger out of my mind.
Although I live under the same roof with my parents, I have no felt the warmth of being at home for many many years, ever since my mother was gone.
